Gambling Addiction – Stop Gambling Help, Advice & Tips From Real Compulsive Gamblers

I self excluded myself from the casinos 10.5 months ago, and I have been clean, gambling free, for 10.5 months.

I am feeling a high level of anxiety because my self exclusion period will end soon, and I am really afraid.

What I should do of course is self exclude myself again for one year, but…I am not doing it.

With all the Gamblers Anonymous meetings and private therapy, non of the underlying reasons that have caused me to gamble have been addressed.

Gamblers Anonymous meetings are all about hearing other gamblers’ horror stories, which serve as a reminder of what a gambling addiction does to you, because we tend to forget the misery and darkness of a gambling addiction soon after the activity stops.

Why on earth I would miss or even think about gambling again is a huge mystery.

By the way, my gambling blog has been going on for several months, just now launching the self posting site, I hope you will share and contribute.

I am planning to start going to Gamblers Anonymous meetings again, which I haven’t done in a while, I guess I need to hear new, fresh horror gambling stories to remind me what a gambling addiction is, I will also call the gambling help line and start seeing a gambling addiction councilor immediately.

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Joe49
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I found this gambling addiction site today by my friend, I just got home from gambling. I feel like a looser and disgusted. I told myself that I would not gamble the only money I have in my account $1000 but again I thought I could go gamble $100 but that $100 became $500. I’m sick in my stomach. I want to stop but my brain is like a slot machine and it wants to spin like one so it drags me to the casino and then I leave feeling like a whore. Over and over and over insanity!

nobonus2
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This is the first time I’ve ever commented on a website. I’m reaching out to anyone out there. I think I’ve reached my rock bottom with my slot machines gambling addiction. I never thought my casual slot use would progress this rapidly. So I’m looking for help today. I have a huge mess to clean up . I knew once I started dreaming about the slot screen my gambling addiction had consumed me. I am sitting here with 2 dollars to my name. I’ve exhausted every resource and need to ask my parents for help again but this time I have a plan to help myself. I’m going to ask my parents to hold my paychecks. How sad I can’t trust myself. I know this though and its a step. Thanks for all the stop gambling insights. It was a light going on when you talked about endorphin and dopamine. I didn’t even think about the impact my slot machine addiction has on my brain, but its so true. Well I am going to call the gambling help hotline and spill the whole truth to the people in my life. No more secrets. It causes me great stress. The hiding and lying. Please keep positive thoughts in my direction and thanks for having this blog!!

Vegas74
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God bless those of you who have recovered from a gambling addiction. Nobonus2 I send all the prayers I can your way. I just joined this site tonight – and have no idea if I will logon again but I had $60,000 in savings a year ago and today I have less than $1k. I’ve withdrawn from an IRA and savings but NOT by daughter’s college fund. I have stopped there. I live in Vegas and am completely addicted to video poker. Even if I leave my debit card at home, I will drive home and get it. I keep thinking I have the will to stop – but I know that I don’t. I’ve read many posts here and they seem logical – but think I’m in too deep. Any other advice??

nobonus2
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I was glad to see your comment fuckthis
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AND thank you for prayers I can only say that until your rock bottom is reached things will not change. I lost 40 dollars today that I borrowed!! This is insanity. My only advice to you and myself and everyone: Don’t listen or believe all the lies are heads are telling us. Tell yourself a different story of what makes us happy. It sounds so cliche but replace the habit with something healthier. I know it sounds easy but I guess I have to hold on to hope. My biggest deterrent is the look of disappointment from my loved ones. I hate that anything controls me. I really don’t have answers but I know we all have come to a powerful step. We’re admitting our problem and looking for help. Believe it will change. All my most positive thoughts and blessings to all of you. I hope you come back. My payday is coming up and for me I’m handing over my resources to someone I trust. For now. I just don’t trust myself. Keep on everyone there is light at the end of the tunnel. Think of things you have overcome before. Don’t give up on yourself. ✌✌✌✌ PEACE.

gottafnstop
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gottafnstop! NOT TODAY! This will work. 3 days free and clear. i feel like a different person already. started gambling at the casino,slots only in Dec of 2012. went to a Christmas party there for my wife’s work. Merry Christmas! I put $20.00 in a slot machine to pass time as my wife was collecting tickets at the entrance and giving out drink tickets to her mangers. The party was upstairs at the fairgrounds in New Orleans. Well things started to happen. Bells, chimes lights, spins, bonus, playing $.30 a spin not much money only 30 cents. I had no idea what the hell i was doing. Since I haven’t been to a casino in 15 years and NEVER DID GAMBLE I had no idea what was going on. I had 100 free spins and won $895.00 on a penny machine with just an outlay of $20.00. EASY MONEY! Right! I had a second job. After three and a half years and $12,000 dollars not in my account anymore that I busted my butt to save. So glad i found this site. NOT TODAY. It will work for me. My last visit to the casino was Monday July 6th. I now know this to be true. It is over. I walked in with $100.00 around lunch and hit $650. Cool. I walked out with $550 to the good and went to the bank to deposit all of it. what a great lunch. I then went back to see a few clients and then around 3 pm I went back to the bank took out $500 because it was my lucky day. Two hours later and down $400 I hit a $850 pot. With in an hour on the $2.00 slots I was down to $100.00 in my pocket. Hit the $5.00 slots and was stone cold broke with only .65 cents in my pocket. Did I tell you about MERRY CHRISTMAS. I walk out dejected, embarrassed , with my head sown, feeling dizzy and saying to my self. hey asshole you did it again. It almost like I wanted to lose the money or knew that i was going to lose and I don’t care.
Then I found this site on Tuesday, July 7th, a God send, how simple, NOT TODAY. and flip it around and say screw you casino, its your fault, we all know its my fault, but screw you casino. They had me but never again, at least NOT TODAY, NOT TODAY. I have little notes in m y car in my office, at home, on my bucket of baseballs, I coach 9-10 girls softball and have for 18 years, I love it.
I can go on, but but the money I have lost, thrown away, was actually money that i have saved in an account that my wife didn’t know about. It now has $15.00 and it was at $12,000 in Dec, of 2013. Did I tell you about MERRY CHRISTMAS? I know this Christmas will be a MERRY CHRISTMAS. NOT TODAY!!!!! Thank you for this gift, I owe you!

gottafnstop
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gravedanger2015, thanks for the encouraging words and prayers. NOT TODAY. Not the encouraging words or prayers but the NOT TODAY about gambling and the casino, NOT TODAY! How simple and direct to the point. NOT TODAY! I have a problem and didn’t know it or just didn’t care. I can stop! To prove it I’ve stopped like 5 or 6 times before. I can do it….no I can’t, not on my own but through this blog and people like you that understand my problem I can and will stop. NOT TODAY and MERRY CHRISTMAS. I am so relived that I will stop gambling, i now know it will happen. My name is David, i am a compulsive slot machine gambler. I wanted you to know that. NOT TODAY. I think I will print up a tee shit for myself to go along with all the notes I have written around my house and office and my car. Last night during our softball game that I coach 9-10 girls, I must of said to the girls 25 times NOT TODAY and just smiled and got tears in my eyes, Hey coach you ok they asked. I asked questions like are we going to swing at bad pitches? NOT TODAY ! They would yell out loud along with myself. are we going to hit the ball and not run all out to first? NOT TODAY, are we going to make dumb mental mistakes/NOT TODAY! Are we going to lose? NOT TODAY! and it went on. Before we hit the field we gathered on the field and I gave them a few world of encourgament and when we broke the huddle and i had them say one for the coach. 1, 2 ,3 NOT TODAY!!!!!! It has been the theme for my life the past 4 days and counting. NOT TODAY!!!!!!! and MERRY CHRISTMAS to all. I can’t wait til DECEMBER 25th!
if you read my first blog you know what it means. for you new gamblers I statrted gambling at my wife”s christmas party DEC 2012 that happened to be at a location that had slot machines and a big ball room/bar upstairs. Long story short, i got bored waitng for wife as she worked the desk checking in her mangers and i won $895.00 on a penny machine 30 cent bets starting with only $20.00. I was then hooked and it just took on a life of its own . That was 2 and half years ago. It was also, the first time i was in a casino in 15 years and new orleans has had casinos for like 30 years or so. Thats what the Merry Christmas is about. NOT TODAY. Thank you man. I owe you and love you. NOT TODAY. It will work for me.

iwokeup
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Never before in my life,I experienced such a horrible feeling as when leaving the casino with no money left, after gambling all night at the roulette table. It was a combination of all the negative words in the dictionary,I would say, sorrow+sick+shame+scare+panic+desperate+exhausted+unhappy……..and much more.

I don’t want to eat, don’t want to take a shower, work becomes a burden, life is just a big black hole and I am at the bottom of it, moaning and crying….and this scenario keeps repeating itself again and again.

Perhaps one of the reasons I kept on gambling may be because of the ” mind fuck” I ran into.

I keep telling myself “don’t give up”,”no pain no gain”, “the more you learn, the more you earn”, keep trying, keep studying, don’t quit, the winners never quit, etc…

Then someday, you will find the formula of consistence winning bet that beats the roulette game, and then I look at the reality, of all of those 8 years up to now, all i have is a very sad human being ,half dead and half alive.

I have tried many things on the net to get me out of this everlasting gambling addiction burning-hell, the tapping-technique of FasterEFT, Teal Swan teachings, subliminal-music, open the 6-chakra, fasting and praying and finally I found this website….

I followed Mr.FG advice. I went to 4 Gambling Anonymous meetings the last 4 days in my city Denver. I start seeing the light in the end of the tunnel and feel there is a HOPE in the coming days…Thank goodness for among all of the evil of casino industry, there is an angel extended his hands to help. Thanks again.

iwokeup
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JUNIOR SEAU QUIETLY opened the door to the massive luxury hotel suite on the Las Vegas Strip. He walked in slowly, face ashen, his massive body hunched over as if he were grimacing in physical pain.

“He slammed a glass on the bar and looked at me and said: ‘Buddee,'” recalls Auwae, who was staying in the suite with him. “I go, ‘Man, please don’t tell me this.'”

According to Auwae, it was mid-December 2010 and Seau had just lost close to a million dollars in 90 minutes playing high-stakes blackjack — $40,000 to $50,000 a hand. Earlier in the day, the 12-time former Pro Bowl linebacker told Auwae he had won close to $800,000. After dinner at a local Italian restaurant, they went back to the room, where Auwae says he begged Seau to stay away from the blackjack tables.

“I said, ‘Man, you clipped them,'” Auwae recalls. “‘You did it. You got their money, just let it be. You can pay some bills, get some people off your back, and just relax. Let’s go watch a show.'”

In the 10 months since they’d met at a reggae concert in San Diego, Auwae and Seau had traveled to Vegas a handful of times and had visited various California casinos, where Auwae says he witnessed Seau win big and lose big. This particular trip to Vegas was unplanned, coming just two days before Seau was due to attend his son Tyler’s Division II semifinal football game for Delta State in Cleveland, Miss. At his home in Oceanside with Auwae, Seau suddenly called for a private jet.

Jay Michael Auwae (middle) still struggles with the loss of his “Buddee”, and how the friendship triggered his own descent. courtesy Jay Michael Auwae
“One minute, we were sitting at the table, and then he said, ‘Let’s pop,'” says Auwae. “What do you mean? Where we going? Boom, next thing you know we’re sitting in Las Vegas in a suite.” A $40,000-a-night suite with a private indoor pool, golf simulator, full butler service and a shellfish bar, which was stocked with crab and shrimp upon their arrival. Auwae says he never saw Seau put down any money, assuming the casino comped the room for a high roller like Junior.

According to a lengthy October 2012 report by U-T San Diego, Seau owed $1.3 million in casino markers to Bellagio and Caesars Palace in November 2010, just a month before his trip with Auwae. According to the same report, he was losing $60,000 to $70,000 a month because of a poor post-retirement investment in Ruby Tuesday restaurant franchises, while his own restaurant, Seau’s, was also in need of upgrades he couldn’t afford.

After Seau returned to the room announcing he had won $800,000, Auwae recalls telling his friend to “just chill.” Junior seemed to agree, content to lounge in the pool for a while with a cocktail in hand. Then there was a knock at the door. “They sent people up to the room to get him to go and play more,” Auwae says, not wanting to name names or the casino. “So he goes down, and not even an hour and a half later he was back.”

Junior looked distraught and told Auwae that he’d lost it all and then some. “He goes into his room and he’s looking at the ceiling,” Auwae says. “He’s just staring like something’s wrong with his head. At the time I’m like, dude, this guy’s crazy. What’s wrong with him? Why would he do that?”

In the past, Auwae had watched Junior in the high-stakes room and joined in the drinking and revelry that came along with it. But Seau had confided in him that his massive debts were mounting, and this trip was the first time Auwae truly understood that Junior was gambling away millions that didn’t exist. And he couldn’t watch anymore.

Auwae says Junior had already called Bette Hoffman, the trustee of Seau’s estate, to wire more money to the casino. But Hoffman called Auwae, he says, and told him: “Whatever you got to do, you got to help [Junior]. You’ve got to stop him. You’ve got to stop him.”

Auwae went to Junior’s room, where he found him laying on the bed, still staring at the ceiling. “I go, ‘Buddee, please let’s go home. This ain’t our world,'” Auwae says. “[Junior] goes, ‘We gotta make it back. Buddee, I’ve got this.’ And I go, ‘Trust me, you don’t got this.’ He goes to bed. Morning comes, the money comes and the gentlemen come back up to grab him. He goes back down.” According to Auwae, Seau lost another $400,000 that day.

iwokeup
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A gambling addiction may kill you. But not before it robs you of your dignity, self esteem, happiness, and of course, all the money and assets you have.
If you are a problem gambler, and obviously you are, otherwise you wouldn’t be here, then beware: A gambling addiction is deadly. It is usually referred to as “playing”; playing the slot machines, playing blackjack or playing the roulette, but, for a gambling addict, gambling is no game.

I’ve just posted a part of the article “The truth of Junior Seau’s suicide”. At one time, Auwae (his best friend) tried to stop him again from gambling, and Seau said “I am a grown man”.
So, just like this story says: don’t think that it will not happen to you, it will and it can.

I learn so much from this site (fuckgambling.com), I try to read it every day and hope that the next statistic won’t list my name.

gottafnstop
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gravedanger, thanks for your kinds words. NOT TODAY, 8 days free and clear of the slots.

gottafnstop
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thanks gravedanger for the kind words. NOT TODAY

gottafnstop
Member

Thanks for you help. Not Today. It’s been 2 plus weeks. No casino for me

Not Alone
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I know I am not alone in this. I read these stories of shame and destruction caused by a gambling addiction and I know I am just one of many gambling addicts struggling with their gambling problem.

Nothing excites me anymore except a trip to the casino and even though the outcome is the same nearly every time and I leave with nothing, sad, worried and ashamed, I can’t wait to get back there and do it again.

I don’t know how to stop my slot machine gambling addiction. I try to imagine what my life would look like if I managed to muster up the will power to quit and all I can envision is more of the in content, empty, bored, depressed, restless, feelings I have now when I am in-between gambling sessions.

It just feels hopeless. I no longer remember how I used to spend my free time when I didn’t gamble. I have tried many things to fill the void or lingering emptiness in me, and I have prayed on my knees that God would take this urge from me.

Every time I go gambling and can’t seem to do anything on the slot machines, I wonder if this is his way of answering my prayers. Maybe if I quit winning anything ever, I won’t have the urge to go back anymore. It doesn’t matter, the urge is still there.

Between slot machines gambling and smoking, these are the only thing I do have an urge to do.

It feels hopeless. My future feels hopeless. I don’t like who I am, who I have become and I can’t seem to change it.

Congratulations to those of you who have followed the stop gambling advice and have stopped. Maybe this demise was in fact my destiny.

gottafnstop
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Not Alone, you can and will stop. NOT TODAY! tell yourself every day NOT TODAY! it has been 4 weeks to the day that I stopped gambling. I feel great! I know i have stopped,You are not alone. I was just like you. I wanted to stop, i needed to stop. I am a compulsive slot machine gambler. They had me I was hooked. I stopped by 4-5 times a week sometimes more and lost almost everyday because i was chasing bad money with good money. I was never happy with being up 100 or 200, there was more money coming my way on my next pull. They had me but never again. 4 weeks without seeing the inside of a casino, I feel GREAT and so can you,
Not Alone, take a deep breath and NOT TODAY! Don’t let those bastards get you anymore. Its like tic tac toe. You can’t win. They built those building and free drinks off of losers like me and you not by winners. It was very difficult for me to stop I tried a few times before but in the back of my mind I knew I still had a few thousand in my secret account to play with, Not anymore its all gone. Lost $12,000 over the last 2and a half years. That was good money in my account,money I had saved for a rainey day, a vacation, down payment for a new car, paying off credit cards. It all went away through the slots. I felt sick, i know how you feel i was just like you. YOU CAN AND WILL STOP, NOT TODAY, don’t gamble NOT TODAY,
Hang in there man we’re all pulling for you. I can only tell you how I stopped and what worked for me. And also, you need to hate the casino, like the girl that broke your heart, they are doing this to you. Screw the casinos it is there fault, that is the approach I took.
Good luck Not Alone keep in touch.
I am and always will be a compulsive slot machine gambler, but NOT TODAY

gottafnstop
Member

one whole month no gambling. NOT TODAY!!!! One day at a time one week at a time one month at a time. Screw you casino! no more of my money for you.

breakingupwiththeFC
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Hi,
This is the first time I have reached out to you but have been on your blog a few times and reading the stories has helped me feel like I am not alone. I have struggled with gambling addiction for 10 yrs. (I am 40 now). I switched from playing cards to the slots and after having what I call the “curse” of winning a large jackpot, and it has been a severe addiction ever since. I can stay out of the casino for weeks or even a month at a time but once I go, I have a very hard time leaving until every last dollar is gone.

I have always considered myself lucky that every casino was at least an hour drive from me but that is changing and it scares me. It infuriates me as I see more and more casinos cropping up all around me. I know I am not alone in feeling pissed off that the states allow these casinos to keep popping up. NO GOOD comes out of them. They are Greedy establishments who feed off the poor, weak, vulnerable, and mentally ill.

I need to quit for good but it is just so hard. The “high” of anticipation I get just driving to the casino is like no other. The “low” when leaving it also like nothing else I can describe. Even on the few occasions I have left with some winnings it is a muted happiness- it doesn’t even feel that great. I proceed to go home and have no energy, feel exhausted and just want to sleep for days on end. I don’t want to talk to anyone or see anyone after a big loss.

The last time I left the casino I decided it was my last time and I was officially Breaking up with the FC (F****ing Casino). The thought of never going back made me start crying as I was driving – it was unlike any “breakup” I have ever had before. Tears streaming down my face like I had lost my best friend. I was BAWLING- just so upset and the feeling of loss was overwhelming.
I have since gone back (making an excuse that I wanted the giveaway they were handing out). I have lost $5k since I said I was breaking up with the FC. Sick. Demented. It is like money is not real money when I am there. As soon as I leave and go to the grocery store the money seems real again and I can’t fathom putting even $10 of my hard-earned money into a slot machine.

That’s all for now… thanks for reading.

breakingupwiththeFC
Member

iwokeup- I have a sick feeling in my gut after reading this. Thank you for posting this. It just goes to show the unbelievable deep rooted GRIP that gambling can have on anyone- it does not discriminate. There is pure evil in the world and the casino sending people up to go get him just shows how they don’t give a F*** about anyone. They were preying on his vulnerability. That is even more sick than any gambling addiction could ever be.

breakingupwiththeFC
Member

Posting on this how to stop gambling tips & advice site is actually very therapeutic and I am fighting the urge to go gamble right now so here I go again typing away…
It has been 5 days since I was in the casino (sorry I mean the F***ing Casino). The urges to gamble come and go but I noticed that I feel the urges the most when I am feeling bored, lonely, stressed (usually about money ironically), or sad. In addition to reading and posting stop gambling advice on this blog, I have made an effort to distract myself with other things which has helped a little. Selling things on ebay, picking out a few good books which I bought for $.99 at a thrift store, working out or walking, cleaning/organizing, and praying have helped me get thru the urges this past week but I am struggling today going into the weekend.

The advice of taking it day by day (saying to myself that maybe I will go another time but I will just not go today) is VERY helpful!! It feels less overwhelming to live in day tight compartments. That said I still have these urges to go slot machines gambling so I will put down in writing two gambling horror stories that are in my head that I hope will help me (and other problem gamblers who read them) abstain from going back to the FC.

A few months ago I was sitting at a slot machine and there was a man cursing and chain smoking like crazy nearby. I could not help but be distracted and disturbed by how he was pacing back and forth between two $25 slot machines and hitting the buttons very hard. He was obviously pissed off but he continued to throw his money into these machines, smoke, curse and play these machines really fast! I turned to the woman sitting next to me and said “He is giving me anxiety- I hope he doesn’t have a heart attack”. This woman, who looked like a sweet little old lady replies to me, “Oh that’s nothing- I have been wheeled out of here twice in an ambulance”. She said it like she was telling me the weather forecast. My jaw dropped and she proceeded to tell me that one weekend she won $45,000 on the slots on Sat night and by the next night she had lost that $45k in Addition to another $30k. I said something stupid (probably because i was in shock)- something like- well it sounds like you have a lot of money to play with. She said no, I took the 30k from my retirement account. I suddenly thought that I could very well end up doing the exact same thing!! I felt a sense of sadness and fear but I continued to gamble that night and lose $4k in just a few hours. It was so strange- it was almost like this fear came over me and I wanted to dump my money as fast as I could and I knew I wouldn’t leave unless there was nothing left. When I left that night I felt disgust but at the same time, when I got into my car I felt this strange sense of relief that i was out of there. VERY odd that I would feel relief and not as much anger due to throwing away enough to pay off some of my credit card debt!!!!

Another gambling horror story is one I heard from a compulsive gambler woman who I used to see semi regularly at the casino, we were talking about how a woman in our area had been followed home from the casino and robbed at gunpoint at her house. She told me about a scheme that some people were using to rob people- they would have white chalk on their palms and if someone won a jackpot they would pat them on the back and say congratulations. Then one of their friends would hang out in the parking garage and look for people who had white chalk on their backs and target those people to rob them. SCARY!!!

Casinos are not healthy places in any way shape or form. Have you ever noticed that most of the problem gamblers who are regulars in the casinos are battling other addictions (food, cigarettes, alcohol, etc). I can see how easy it is for that to happen- I personally gained at least 20 lbs in the past year from going so often and just sitting at the slots. Let’s see- sitting in my car driving to the casino and then sitting at the slots giving my money away for hours and hours and hours- neglecting sleep, drinking caffeine like a hound so I would stay awake so I could throw more money away. The whole thing is just CRAZY to think about when I am in a rational state of mind!!!! A slot machines gambling addiction is INSANITY. Period. I wish the casinos would be shut down, and the owners prosecuted for contributing to this sick addiction. In my mind they are no different than drug dealers.

gottafnstop
Member

As a recovering slot machine gambling addict I would like to offer my insight and a few stop gambling tips that will help you arrest your gambling addiction:
Its been over 5 weeks now since I’ve stopped gambling. The longest period since I started in Dec of 2012. NOT TODAY! not sure why this hit a cord with me. but it’s working. I guess after trying 4 or 5 times the last 6 months or so I was ready, but this stop gambling now blog was a huge help to me. When I read the words NOT TODAY it hit me hard. I was ready to quit I wanted to quit. I’ve gained 25lbs. since I started to gamble. 168 to 193, the most weight ever. I need to lose 15 lbs and I will do it. I had heart burn, bad, never had it before, I was lazy, didn’t go for walks or to ride my bike as often, I had mood swings, wasn’t as out going and happy. Hell I was a compulsive Slot machine gambler losing fu###ing money I couldn’t afford to lose. I was changing into a person I didn’t want to be. I was depressed. You see I love my wife of 27 years and my two daughters more than gambling but it took me a while to figure it out. I say close down the fu##ers now! Thousands of families will be hurt by this industry, but not my family, not anymore. I thank the Good Lord and my Blessed Mother for helping me through this awful slot machines gambling addiction. NOT TODAY it will work. You see I am very blessed, I know that July 6, 2015 is the last day that I will ever gamble, I just know it, I feel it. I am one of the lucky ones. I know its only been just shy of 6 weeks but I feel the liberation from the slot machine gambling addiction choke-hold, I don’t think about the slot machines anymore as a matter of fact I HATE THE CASINOS AND THE SLOTS. They did this to me, I hate you. FU#k you casino. Never again, NOT TODAY!!!

For all you problem gamblers needing help I pray for you, keep it up, write on this stop gambling advice blog talk to somebody you trust and tell them about your gambling problem. It will help. You are not alone, I am here to help you. I was just like you.

My name is David and I am a compulsive slot machine gambler, but NOT TODAY!!!!!!
Good luck

boeing7371
Member

I’m nearly 60 and have been playing slots on and off since I was in my teens. I never considered myself a slot machine addict until recently when I tried out an online Casino. After an initial big win I lost and lost and lost and kept on topping up without realizing how much I had spent. The experience has made me self exclude not just online but in at betting shops too. It was frightening and I really hope I can now stay clean. If you have not been gambling online yet but are tempted don’t do it!!!

gottafnstop
Member

6 weeks without slot machine gambling and I feel great. I pray for those of you who want and need to quit but can’t find the strength. Hang tough, you can do it. Take one day at a time. NOT TODAY! good luck and continue to check out this blog. I feel like one of the lucky ones. I know that July 6th was the last day that I will ever gamble. It’s not easy but I know I have defeated my slot machines gambling addiction and the casinos.

Good luck to all you gambling addicts struggling with these demons.

desperate
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I’ve been reading all the testimonies but don’t feel any hope because even if I stop cold turkey I’ve lost everything financially and don’t know how to fix it. I’m on a fixed income and have gambled away all my inheritance, am feeling suicidal, have been to a gambling Councillor and gambling anonymous and still gambled. I feel so hopeless and if I loose my house I have no family to live with. Please help me if you can

breakingupwiththeFC
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I am feeling very depressed and ashamed today. I have actually not gambled in a few weeks but the last time I gambled I did something I never thought I would ever even consider doing. I can truly say that this has to be my rock bottom. I won a jackpot check, deposited it via an app into my bank account so that I would not cash it at the casino. After a few more hours of slot playing, I was out of money and had hit my daily withdrawal limit at the ATM. I did not want to leave so I took the check I had already deposited via my bank app, and physically cashed it right there in the casino. At the time I knew what I was doing was wrong and I felt slightly guilty doing that but my mind was so focused on needing to keep gambling that I did not care. Predictably, I lost all the money from the cashed check and drove home disgusted with myself. Within two days the casino debited my bank account for the amount of the check so they got their money-I looked at it like a temporary loan and I just figured I would never go back to this place (it happens to be my least favorite of all the casinos in my area). Well, today I received a letter from that casino telling me I am being EJECTED and no longer allowed on the premises. I am sick to my stomach – NOT because I had any intention of ever going back there but because what I did was wrong and this letter is like a mirror being held up to me as to how desperate and pathetic I am. I should be HAPPY because then I don’t have to self exclude if I am ejected but I was raised differently and this is the first and last time I will ever do something like that. But it still makes me sick to my stomach and horribly embarrassed and humiliated.

gottafnstop
Member

BreakingupwithFC, I did the same thing kind of. My wife gave me her $2,000 BONUS check to payoff our Disney trip. You know what I did. I let my slot machines gambling addiction control me. I ran to the fu#kin casino and in two days it was all gone. I knew I was heading towards the bottom. I still owe about $600 on the trip and with interest its cost me way more than $2,000. It could have been paid off. I am more than 6 weeks clean and I know I have stopped throwing my money into slot machines. Thank God. I hate the casino. I hope you continue to stay away and not gamble, NOT TODAY.

gottafnstop
Member

gravedanger2015. You have said it all. The chances of winning on slot machines are ZERO, plus you will lose all your time, health, friends, family, self esteem and self respect. Wish I had found this stop gambling now tips and advice site a year ago. Combining NOT TODAY with winning chances are ZERO and hating the f-in casino makes this easier for me. 6 weeks free of the casino. And like I have said before, and I hope y’all get tired of hearing it but my last day to EVER gamble was July 6, 2015, I know this to be true.

This stop gambling now advice and tips from real recovering gambling addicts blog has saved my job, my marriage and maybe my life. I am blessed to have found this blog.

gottafnstop
Member

So. I come yesterday to find mail from the casino. Hey Mr. David how are you? Hope all is well. We haven’t seen you in a while.
We value your business (they mean the money I throw into slot machines). Stop by and see us if you have any issues. Please talk to one of our managers. You are one of our best customers. Just to prove it we’ll give you $50.00 free play just drop by and see us! We’ll fu%k you! NOT TODAY!
I will stay strong and I will not gamble. I am done, you know, stick a fork in me. DONE!
Stay strong my friends, Don’t let em get you. NOT TODAY.

gottafnstop
Member

I dreamed last night that I hit a $2,500 slot machine jackpot. That must be the work of the devil. We know he works for the casino. Nice try. NOT TODAY!!! 7 weeks clean of the casino. I am a recovering slot machine gambler. It always makes me feel better about myself and stronger when i post on this site. It has not been easy but I was ready to get my life back. That’s right get my life back and take control. You guys know what I mean. In being fair with myself I have figured out that I have not lost $12,000 since Dec.of 2012. It’s more like $18,000. I need to honest with my self and with you. I’ve wasted a 2,000 bonus check for my wife, 1,200 bonus check for me and $2,500 that my dad gave all his kids last Christmas as a little surprise. That’s a lot of fu##in money to throw into slot machines when you are trying to made ends meet. So relieved that I am for now and always will be defeating the demons.

I hate the casino, I hate who I was becoming, I love my wife, I love my kids.

Stay strong and NOT TODAY. All of you slot machines gambling addicts struggling with your addiction good luck and get help, stop your problem gambling from getting worse. You will stop gambling when you die, or run out of money. I stopped when I ran out of play money, $!8,000! Please stop gambling before you die or run out of money. Because by that time it is too late. Praying for all of us to stop and stay stopped.

smokey76
Member

Just found this stop gambling now tips and advice site and it is helping me out big rite now. I hit rock bottom last Saturday and the time has come after 15 years of bullshit to say never again will I touch a slot machine button. I’ve received 3 post cards from the casino this week alone with more than $200 in free slot machines play which I proudly ripped up in front of my wife and loved ones who I’ve hurt so bad. I hope they send me a letter or call me asking me where I’ve been because I will gladly respond. Every week my schedule revolved around free play dates and how much $$ I can round up. I will go into detail later about what the casino has done to me but I just love the posts that I’ve read here because I can relate to every one of them. Not today! Thanks everyone!

smokey76
Member

brisbane or here in New York it’s all the same… It’s the same everywhere. I just spent the last 2 hours crying to my wife how ashamed I am. It’s been 1 week for me and tonite was really tough. My life has been so controlled by a casino, by a machine that makes noise and lights up and makes my body feel good.. It’s over. People joke around and say “why don’t you just work there then you won’t be able to gamble there” but I know that can’t happen. Also I would never work for a place that has the ability to grab a persons addiction and destroy their life. You people on this blog are helping me out at my darkest hour and I thank you so much…

gottafnstop
Member

smokey76, congrats for making it through the first week. Be strong. I was just like you. I cried a few times leaving the casino stone cold broke after being up a few hundred. I was never satisfied, looking for that next big hit so I could gamble some more. Good luck with beating your slot machines gambling addiction. I tell gamblers on this site that I am a compulsive slot machine gambler, but NOT TODAY. July 6,2015 was the last day I will ever gamble. Remember the date of the last day you gambled and try to add one more day to it. I know I have defeated the gambling demons and I pray you have too.

Stay strong, visit this stop gambling now tips and advice from real recovering gamblers site often and share your story. It has been a huge help to me.
Good luck smokey 76.

gottafnstop
Member

NOT TODAY! The chances of winning on a slot machine are ZERO! Winning on slot machines is not possible! You will lose all your hard earned money! Thanks gravedanger. These are his words of wisdom that I live by everyday now. Thank you. You have been a huge help to me.
NOY TODAY

breakingupwiththeFC
Member

Gottafnstop: thank you for sharing your stop gambling addiction advice and helping me feel like I’m not alone. I Have NOT been to a casino in 34 Days and I can tell that the urges to gamble on slot machines have become less intense as time goes on which is comforting because when I was gambling on slot machines a lot the urges were Intense all the time!!

The irony of the story I mentioned above is that the casino that sent me the ejection letter won’t stop emailing me offers!!! I have tried twice to “unsubscribe” and each time it kicks back a message saying “system not available- Please try again later”. How F****ing convenient that they won’t even let people opt out of their emails- what SCUM!!! I did add the casino email address to my blocked senders list so hopefully I won’t have to see their pathetic offers anymore. That place was a shithole anyway so in a way it was a Huge blessing to get that letter!! Glad we are all on this together!!

gottafnstop
Member

breakingupwiththeFC, Congrats for staying away from the slot machines for so long. over one month. I am at 8 weeks today. I tell myself every day NOT TODAY, chances of winning on slot machines are ZERO. If you are a real recovering slot machines gambler like me you know it feels great. July 6, 2015 the last day that I will ever gamble. I know it to be true. I hope and pray the same for you. Don’t give into the bastards. Good luck and stay stopped. Kick those demons out of your life. You know I was afraid to say it but its getting easier to stay away. I think my brain is getting back to pre slot machine addiction. Good luck, stay strong and NOT TODAY.

gottafnstop
Member

I am not a writer or poet as you will soon find out. I just put this down on paper some of my thoughts about how I see my slot machines gambling addiction. I always feel better about my self when I read this blog or post on this site. Stop gambling now tips and advice from real recovering slot machine addicts like me. Anyway here goes.
“Ruining Me”

It’s ruining me
down, down , down, down
As the spin’s not free
Looking at the wheels where
will they stop for me.

It’s not the roll of the dice
or a turn of the card
It’s not the little white ball
that rolls.
it’s the spin, spin, spin
It’s ruining me

Spin ,spin, spin, spin
spin on down, down, down
as you watch your baby
go down down down

You say you need to stop
but your spinning on
down down down down
There’s a grip so tight
you can’t let go
as you find your one
it has a
hold on you

I miss my baby oh so much
I wish I had her back
The things we could have seen and done
oh how we missed out
I know where my baby has gone
as we spin spin spin
She went down down down
she went down down down
Its ruining me

Told you I’m not a writer. But I am a recovering compulsive slot machine gambler, NOT TODAY. * weeks free

gottafnstop
Member

gravedanger2015, I just wrote down my thoughts one night about my slot machines problem gambling addiction, and it just happened. It’s the slot machines that had a hold on me and I couldn’t let go. And of course my baby is my money, now their money. I get angry when I think about where I was in my life. I know I didn’t lose the money…I threw it away. That compulsive slot machines addict is going away with every passing day.

gottafnstop
Member

gravedanger2015, Maybe you can put some music to these words and we can go on tour. To Las Vegas! LOL. We can sing by the slot machines poem by night and during the day consult and tend to the slot machine addicts. Wish it were that easy. 8 weeks to the day I stopped. Its an anniversary for me. I am so happy that i have stopped the slot machine gambling addiction madness.
I am a compulsive problem slot machines gambler. But NOT TODAY. 64 days without seeing the inside of a casino. On my way to recovery.
Good luck to everyone fighting this addiction, I am fighting it now. But getting ready to knock it out.

breakingupwiththeFC
Member

I have not gambled in 36 days. I think the most difficult part of this phase of not gambling is that I really really MISS the adrenaline rush. Without it, I feel like I’m in limbo and nothing makes me happy.
This is a very tough place to be because I’m depressed and I crave excitement. The only things that provide some sort of “high” for me are playing slots and eating sugar. That’s pretty pathetic. I could do the latter but I have already gained weight from this horrible gambling addiction (stopping for fast food on my way home from losing at the casino puts weight on Fast!!). I used to be an athlete and feel somewhat attractive but that is all gone once I started playing slots.
Let’s see all the things I have Gained from gambling: stress, low self-esteem, shame, disgust, debt, bad credit, and a more isolated life.
NOT Today!!!

breakingupwiththeFC
Member

gravedanger- stay strong!! Thing about ALL the people you have helped because you established this amazing blog!

The casinos don’t deserve one more penny from any of us. I would personally rather throw money out the window than give it to the casino. Better yet I would rather give it to someone who has no food or shelter than put it into a slot machine. Maybe easier said than done but when I’m thinking rationally I truly believe this.

That’s great that you have such a bond with your dog! Our pets love having us around. I think it stresses them out when we are gone for hours and hours on end at the casino. I know I give my pets much more affection and quality time when I’m clean because I’m not so emotionally and physically exhausted, angry and stressed out!!

Congrats on 15 months clean!! 15 months and one day is right in front of you!!

gottafnstop
Member

breakingupwithFC, Tell em! Stay strong NOT TODAY. Gravedanger stay away be strong. We won’t let you go back. Don’t let those bastards get you, NOT TODAY! You have helped us way to much to fall back.

We all have tough times with our gambling addiction but you have been clean way to long and fought the good fight. Take a deep breath and NOT TODAY. You are the reason I have been clean and slot free for over 8 weeks now. Think of those horror stories when you feel weak and think of all the addicted gamblers you have helped. You have saved me and guys like breakingupwiththeFC and others have made me understand that I am not alone in my battle. Thanks for all your kind words, and words of wisdom.

Chances of winning on slot machines are ZERO, that’s you man, I say it every day, Chances of winning are ZERO and NOT TODAY.

Because of you I can say I am clean and the last day that I will ever gamble was July 6, 2015. I know it.
With confidence I can say, My name is David and I am a recovering compulsive slot machine gambler, But NOT TODAY.
Thank you! I owe you.

ilostitall
Member

I just found your stop gambling now tips and advice blog and after reading comment upon comment that could have been written by me, have decided to add my voice to the gambling choir.

i’d never gambled until i moved to Las Vegas. i was taken to a casino by a friend and within a week, went by twice more by myself. very quickly i developed a pattern of going to the casino each day and sometimes, i even went twice. i had a lot of money back then and more was on the way. i was extremely lonely and lost – the casino became my safe haven. i spent about $1,000 a day – easy math here – do this everyday for a year and you’re down $365,000. i started gambling $2,000 a day – first on video poker, later on slots.

When the money in my bank account was noticeably lower, i decided to move to another state and promised myself that if i ever wanted to gamble, i’d just return to Vegas and even if i went four times a year, i wouldn’t be doing the daily gambling bit. that promise lasted less than a day. i found an Indian casino near my new home and got myself there before unpacking one box. i went every single day and no longer gave myself a budget of $2,000 each day. i told no one – it was my secret life. i didn’t realize how depressed i was even though i would drive home without a dime since i always gambled to extinction and would assure myself that i was dying so the money wouldn’t matter.

I received huge payouts that had been owed to me and took massive amounts to cash and spent them in record time – like half a million dollars in two months. i had no food in my house, no money left to exist, maxed out credit cards and accrued an enormous debt to the IRS. i was dying, i was sure of it and all that made me happy was getting the bonus rounds on my favorite slot machines.

over a year and half ago, i received the final chunk of money that was owed to me. i finally opened up to two friends who got it – and helped me find a house to buy and pay for with cash so that at the very least, i would always have a place to live in until i die. one night at the casino, i got annoyed at the place where they all knew me and were lovely to me. i was annoyed at a teeny issue, i’d never complained about anything there – and i wasn’t treated fairly. i was aware then as i am now, that i was desperately searching for ANY reason to stop going to that damn casino. i never went back – just like that, i walked away from my monstrous addiction that had cost me millions of dollars, my health and my sanity.

but here’s the kicker – i now live on disability since i have no income and no savings – just my house and my car. it mortifies me that i am on the dole but that’s what gambling did or rather, what i did with gambling. back to the kicker. i have no doubt that if i were to get a huge chunk of money again, if i were to win the lottery, i would return to the casino – be it the one where i got annoyed or another one. i shudder to think about having too much money in my hands at one time because i know that i am still a gambler and that years may go by without my stepping into a casino – but with lots of cash, i’d be out the door as soon as the money hit my account and would gamble it all.

many of us fantasize about what we’d do if we were to win power ball or mega millions. i just feel abject terror when i think about that. i do the numbers, knowing i would need at least a million dollars a year for gambling, then multiple that number by my age – and then i think how that might not be enough to i come up with 5 million a year and multiply – and no, my gambling addiction is simply hibernating but it is as vicious as it has ever been.

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