I self excluded myself from the casinos 10.5 months ago, and I have been clean, gambling free, for 10.5 months.
I am feeling a high level of anxiety because my self exclusion period will end soon, and I am really afraid.
What I should do of course is self exclude myself again for one year, but…I am not doing it.
With all the Gamblers Anonymous meetings and private therapy, non of the underlying reasons that have caused me to gamble have been addressed.
Gamblers Anonymous meetings are all about hearing other gamblers’ horror stories, which serve as a reminder of what a gambling addiction does to you, because we tend to forget the misery and darkness of a gambling addiction soon after the activity stops.
Why on earth I would miss or even think about gambling again is a huge mystery.
By the way, my gambling blog has been going on for several months, just now launching the self posting site, I hope you will share and contribute.
I am planning to start going to Gamblers Anonymous meetings again, which I haven’t done in a while, I guess I need to hear new, fresh horror gambling stories to remind me what a gambling addiction is, I will also call the gambling help line and start seeing a gambling addiction councilor immediately.